Simplicity.

And The Semester Ends ...

This semester has been different from all the rest. For starters, I've never taken this many classes, and I've officially (and finally) changed my major. But one thing that has come to my mind recently is the fact that I haven't really made friends in college that I've held onto. The only person that I actually kept in touch with after a class ended decided that a particular fight back in January was enough to break up and end our friendship. Of course, for a span of so many months, she was my best friend. I've met a few new people this semester, two of which really stick out in my mind, and I'm almost afraid because I don't want to lose them like I've lost other friends. College isn't like high school. You're not stuck with the same people for four years; you're with them for a couple of months and then it's over. Sure, that can be good, but not when you've made a connection and you don't want to lose them. There are so many people that I've talked to in different classes that I never spoke to again once the class was over. I know that this is bound to happen. After all, life goes on and people get busy. But I don't want it to happen this time around. I'm tired of losing people whether it be because of a silly fight or because you're not stuck in the same room for 90 minutes three days a week anymore. So what can I do? Try to keep in touch. Try to make plans. Try to not let myself get too busy for people. Try not to get into silly fights. Like I said, this semester has been different. Even the people have been different. So I hope keeping in touch works this time around.

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Postponing The Inevitable

Ever feel like you're only postponing the inevitable? Like you know that eventually something bad is going to happen ... or something will go wrong ... or everything that you've been avoiding will eventually blow up right in front of your eyes? But what if you're happy in the here and now? And what if you're so afraid that you'll never find this kind of happiness again? Like this is your only shot? Like no one else will ever care this much? Of course ... what if you're always trying so hard when you shouldn't even have to? What if you feel like that's what you have to do in order for things to stay happy and nice? What if you secretly want to run away from it all? And not just your main problem but everything? Because even though you are happy, you're scared that you will inevitably lose it all. Then there's no where to run.

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Limbo

Ever feel like you're living your life but certain choices that you've made in the recent past have been chosen for you? Ever feel like if you actually had enough courage, everything would change?

Sometimes life is like limbo. You become torn between the life that you're living and the life that you really wish you had.

So why is it so hard to break out of our shells and try to get what we want?

Because sometimes it's easier to just stay where you are. This way, you can't get hurt. This way, you can't hurt other people.

This way, you're not taking any chances.

But what is life without taking chances? You're never going to get anywhere if you don't try. But what do you do when trying seems too hard? When you're afraid to be alone? When you want to tell someone how you feel, but you know it could change everything, and you don't want to lose them?

That's when you're in limbo. Sure, you can force yourself to be content with this life, but deep down you know what you'd really like your life to be like. And the thought of how happy you could be if everything actually worked out the way that YOU want can haunt you.

But still, you stay where you are. Because it's easier. Because it's safer....

posted by Jennifer @ 5:18:00 PM 0 comments

Bleeding Love / Leona Lewis

Closed off from love / I didn’t need the pain / Once or twice was enough / And it was all in vain / Time starts to pass / Before you know it you’re frozen / But something happened / For the very first time with you / My heart melts into the ground / Found something true / And everyone’s looking round / Thinking I’m going crazy / But I don’t care what they say / I’m in love with you / They try to pull me away / But they don’t know the truth / My heart’s crippled by the vein / That I keep on closing / You cut me open and I / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / You cut me open / Trying hard not to hear / But they talk so loud / Their piercing sounds fill my ears / Try to fill me with doubt / Yet I know that the goal / Is to keep me from falling / But nothing’s greater / Than the rush that comes with your embrace / And in this world of loneliness I see your face / Yet everyone around me / Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe / But I don’t care what they say / I’m in love with you / They try to pull me away / But they don’t know the truth / My heart’s crippled by the vein / That I keep on closing / You cut me open and I / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / You cut me open / And it’s draining all of me / Oh they find it hard to believe / I’ll be wearing these scars / For everyone to see / I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you / They try to pull me away / But they don’t know the truth / My heart’s crippled by the vein / That I keep on closing / You cut me open and I / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / You cut me open and I / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love / You cut me open and I / Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

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