BOO! Scary, huh?
Thinking: I have no Halloween plans; anyone wanna hang out?
Listening to: Point of Grace (hehehe I found new music!)
Dreaming of: Being anywhere
BUT here
Halloween outfit?: I'm going as a tired, edgy high school student who wants nothing more than to graduate and actually be able to begin her life...
Dry Erase Board Says: "Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
What's Stuck In Jen's DVD Player?: A Cinderella Story (as you can probably tell by the quote above)
So what if I'm a: drama queen deal with it!
Hey guyz! It's been a long week, and I can only remember half of it. I had a group presentation on Thursday which went okay except for my normal shaky voice. I really wish I could get over my fear of public speaking. But hey, everyone seems to be used to it now anyway so I think if I actually got through a presentation without the nervousness, everyone would probably be completely bewildered.
Oh well, that's just part of being me.
So, I've decided to go in a different direction with my scholarship. You now, the one that
I could actually win $100,000 from? Yeah, well, I'm trying to keep the thought of the other million people that are probably going to enter it out of my head. If I don't believe in myself, I'm never going to get anywhere.
There ya go Jen, try to think positive. lol hey, take it while you can -- I'm not positive too often. Anyway, I've decided to lean more toward my writing which is what everyone has been telling me to do since the beginning. Why didn't I listen? Well, I was afraid that my REAL dream was too boring. If I'm ever going to have a chance at wining this thing I need to stick out ... and I mean REALLY stick out. There's probably going to be a thousand other people out there that write about wanting to be an author, but I'll find a way to be unique. I always do.
I've been checking out different colleges lately, which probably comes as a major shocker
to those of you who are devoted readers (
like there's actually even one!) because well, you know that I've been pretty much glued to my decision of one particular college. I definately don't want to be 20 and still living here. Even now I want to leave sometimes. I can't imagine living here all through college, besides, Heather and I need to get an appartment together ... who else is going to hold her hair for her while she's hanging her head over the toilet from drinking too much? lol Just kidding Heather! :)
Well, I actually do have some interesting news for those of you who are bored.
The yearbook staff is sponsoring the first ever Christmas Ball. Pretty cool, huh? Heather and I have been assigned to decorating trees. Oh yeah ...
BIG fun! lol It kind of sucks though that I'm going to be taking the ACT on the morning of the dance ... last year I had to take the PSAT on the morning of homecoming. Anyway, I think it's going to be really awesome, and I'm totally thinking about going. hhhhmmm ... now all I need is a date ... any takers?
:)
Plans for the weekend? Well, tomorrow I was thinking about going around town and seeing if I can apply for a
Christmas job somewhere. There's gotta be some place that's hiring. Wish me luck! Oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILL! I didn't forget ya!
Peace & Happy Halloween!
-JKM - OUT!
A Regular Lois Lane
Thinking: TGIF!
Listening to: 104.7 (The Fish)
Wondering why I: have so many glue bottles on my desk ... there's like four of them!
Dreaming of: A weekend with no homework and no projects!
Hey guyz! Well, Tuesday went well. I took pictures of the chorus's dress rehearsal, and although it took me a while, I got some awesome shots. Lets just hope that no one deletes them! I'm really starting to feel like a cross between Lois Lane, Chole Sullivan and Veronica Mars! lol It's fun though; I'm really starting to enjoy photography.
Anyone have any good music suggestions? I'm tired of everything that I've been listening to lately, and it's driving me insane. I don't want to hear stuff like, "
kill me now" or "
I want to die" ... I think I need something a little bit more positive to listen to.
Oh yeah ... so my yearbook teachers assigns me the opening copy of the yearbook and is like, "
oh yeah, it's due by tomorrow." That's like the most important part of the yearbook! I mean, I'm really honored and all that she picked me, but I don't know why people have so much faith in me!!! Well, I wrote it, and she seemed to like it so everything's cool. Which reminds me, my language arts teacher comes up to me today and starts talking about how
we're going to start a literary magazine and how she told my journalism teacher that I'm interested in it and all. Dude, she was going to start this thing LAST November! I NEVER said anything about being interested in it this year, but I guess I'm going to be in it. Who knows, maybe I'll get to be editor or something ... that would look so awesome on my college app.
hehehe To all of you faithful readers out there (like anyone actually reads this) you will be glad to know that
I got a 99 on my chemistry test! I was like omg! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!? That is like the best thing ever! And oh yeah, that pumpkin thing that I was freaking out over ... got a 100 :)
Yep, it's been a pretty okay week. Of course I have like two projects to work on this weekend, but that's normal for me.
Oh, I really want to get a Christmas job, so if anyone knows of some place that's hiring for the season around town ... let me know!
-JKM - OUT!
You're JUST Average
Thinking: Who is actually credited for creating the SAT and ACT?
Wanting To: Hunt him/her --^ down and make them take the stupid test!
Listening To: Blake Shelton
Glad That It's: FALL BREAK!
Hey guyz! Okay, first off, just because they give us a fall break doesn't mean that they're not going to pile us down with homework to do during our well deserved time off. I don't think that they can comprehend that
we actually do have lives outside of that big prison that we're stuck in Monday - Friday.
I need to vent a little. I received my ACT addmission slip on Friday, and the wonderful people who decide where you go to take the test
put me at a school that is about 40 minutes to an hour away from where I live! And you know what? If I actually try to get my testing center changed, I'm going to have to fork out another $17 to them!
Grrr... I'm still waiting for my SAT slip to show up in the mail, and oh boy, I'm really wondering where they're going to put me for that test! Hong Kong?
I've been freaking out about scholarships lately. I have no clue how I'm going to pay for college, and so therefore, I'm working my butt off trying to apply for as many scholarships that I can. I'm not the type of person that's usually chosen for these things though. I don't play sports, I'm not a cheerleader, and although my grades are good, I'm not like a genius or anything.
I'm working on this one scholarship right now though that's for $100,000 ... wouldn't that be awesome if I actually won? Of course, out of like a thousand other people that are going to enter, I really doubt that I ...
the girl who's chemistry teacher STILL can't remeber her name even though it's past midterm ... would be chosen. Okay, so here's a question ... do you have to pay back financial aid that you receive from a college? That might be a stupid question but its been going around lately. Oh, and here's another one ... what is the lowest and the highest score that can be made on the ACT? I need at least a 21 ... anyone think that I can wing that?
You know what? I'm tired of people making me and other fellow teenagers feel stupid because of an SAT score. I mean, I am good at many things but these things just don't get put on that stupid test.
Where are the journalism questions? Where are the chances to show off great photography? HUH? It's so unfair. I'm praying for a 1000 on the SAT - and yes, I know a lot of you out there are probably thinking, "
dang, that girl's stupid!" But I'm not!
REALLY! I need a 1000 to get financial aid from this college that I'm planning on going to and so far in SAT prep the highest score that I've gotten is a 930 ... yep, I can hear all of the gasping and cries of, "
how could someone be that dumb!" But oh well.
I don't care anymore. You know what though? I was watching
Everwood the other night, and Amy got a 14000 on the SAT. I mean, that is so totally unbelievable, and it makes all of us average people feel bad. I feel like there's some old SAT dude screaming in my ear every minute, "
you're just average, you're just average!" Anyway, as you can tell, I really did need to vent out all of that. Maybe by my next entry I'll actually have some
good news.
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JKM - OUT!
Opposites Attract
Thinking: I get a break? Whoo-hoo!
Listening to: Kelly Clarkson
Dreading: Tomorrow's Chemistry test!
Reading: The Creek By: Jennifer L. Holm
Looking foward to: Fall Break! (Next Weekend! Four days off!)
Hey guyz! My computer has been acting so retarded lately, and I keep telling it that if it doesn't behave
I'm going to smash it and get a laptop. Of course, to my disadvantage, my computer is really smart. It knows that
one, I need it and
two I do not have enough money to buy a laptop. So, I guess I'll just have to deal with getting
kicked off of the internet every 45 seconds for now.
Okay, I cannot go any further without mentioning this past week's episode of
Gilmore Girls. I don't know about you, but
I have been waiting at least four years for Lorilei and Luke to hook up, and man, I was so screaming at the television last Tuesday. If you missed the episode, then you missed a lot; it was probably the best one yet!!!
School has been crazy like usual lately. Apparently
teachers assume that we don't have lives of our own, and so they decide to throw a million projects at us during mid-term. I've completed one of them so far, and I'm glad it's over with. It's kind of weird actually. I had to read a book and write different things about it on ten index cards. It might not sound too bad, but you should see the requirements for each index card. Well, it's over with and I'm happy, but of course now I have to go out and buy a pumpkin for a chemistry project. I have to carve something that has to do with chemistry into a pumpkin. I wonder if there's some type of "
how-to-carve-a-chemist's-face-into-a-pumpkin-guide" somewhere. I'll figure it out somehow. Oh yeah, see that project, along with another book report project thingy that I have to do for SAT prep will be my main event during my fall break. Isn't that just wonderful? Yeah, I seriously need a life. Oh, and I'm still looking for a chemistry tutor. Anyone up for the job? :)
Yearbook has been driving me up the walls lately. For one thing, my partner sleeps through the period and for another, I have to figure out how I'm going to take two pictures of two different people from two different places in the school and make it appear that they are standing next to each other. Our deadline is Friday, and I'm scared about it because I don't want people to get mad at me if it looks crapy, I'm excited about it because well, it would be cool if it did somehow end up looking good, and
I'm praying that I don't spell anyone's name wrong.
I went to see
Bye Bye Birdie with Casey yesterday, and it was awesome! I laughed through like the entire thing. To all of my drama friends, I applaud you!
GREAT JOB SHARITA!
I must remind everyone to
pick up a copy of Teen People Magazine sometime this month because my poem is on the Message Board. Also, I was reading
Seventeen the other day, and I really liked this one article called, "
Opposites Attract." It's about this girl who is preppy and popular, and she ends up dating this guy who is really edgy and punk. It's a really good article, and it really makes you think.
I used to have a certain "type" of guy that I liked, but well,
once you get to high school you learn that that type of guy isn't the best type after all. Personally, (and believe me, I've learned this after sitting at lunch Friday) I really just like to be around people that I can feel comfortable with. I like to be able to be myself and say stupid things or even whatever comes to my mind, without the person that I'm talking to looking at me weird or thinking I'm stupid. I talked to two totally different guys this past week. The first guy I felt completely comfortable with and the conversation just kind of happened on its own, but the second I just didn't feel comfortable around, and well, we had a conversation but everything that I could think of to say took me like one minute to get out. Then there was complete and annoying silence. It's weird though because with the second one, everyone was asking if we were dating,
WHICH WE ARE NOT! Oh well, whatever. Anyway, I just thought I'd share that with you guys ... who knows ... maybe it will give someone out there a new perspective. lol If you can even understand what I'm trying to say.
Wow, that was a long entry. lol I'll type to ya later.
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JKM - OUT!
Red Sparkles
Thinking: Today is actually peaceful!
Dreaming of: A perfect SAT score!
Watching: The Perfect Score
Dry Erase Board Says: Get layout pics developed...
Football Record: We've actually won
ONE game!
Hey guyz! Sorry its been a while! My computer has been acting kind of weird lately. I mean, it's usual for my
computer to hate me and kick me off of the internet every five minutes, but lately it's been a little meaner than normal. Oh well, whenever it acts like this I learn how to deal with it, but I am dreaming of the day when I have AOL or MSN in my office or something!
All of the events for homecoming went well, and of course, we didn't end up winning the game, but well, that's normal. All of my friends who actually went to the dance seem to have had a good time and a few of them actually hooked up so good luck to you guys! As for me, well, I don't really remember
what I did last Saturday night, but I think it was along the lines of watching movies and wondering why I didn't go to the dance. It's a long story of why I didn't go, but lets just say that next year, I'm going to try to do everything possible no matter what! I need to have a lil' fun every now and then, and I know that I don't. I might be a loner. Okay, I just had a
major freshmen flashback while typing that. lol Long story short, my physical science teacher thought I was a loner because I never talked in class ... yeah, I hated that class ....
So, being a junior has hit its peak. I just had the first part of the HSGT the other day, and it really wasn't fun. The worst part is that
they throw this big test at you that decides whether or whether not you get to graduate, and then when you're done, they expect you to go to all of your classes except first period and do more work all day. Grr...
I'm about to sign up for the SAT and ACT. We got our second scores back in SAT Prep the other day, (
we take the test four times during the course of the class, but the scores don't really count) and
I improved 100 points. Of course, if I tell you what my score is now (
which I am happy about) you'll probably think I'm dumb, so
I'll leave that out for the sake of my self-confidence issues. Lets just put it this way: to go to Brenau (
which is where I want to go to college) I have to get a certain score on the SAT ... or at least I have to get this certain score to get financial aid for Brenau which I
REALLY need ... anyway, I didn't get that score yet, and I'm um ... 70 points away from it. Anyone out there think I could get it next time? Wait, maybe I shouldn't ask that. If you're going to make me want to curl up in a corner and die, I don't want to know okay? lol
Anyway, all of the SAT crap has been making me feel really shaky about it so I rented The Perfect Score yesterday which is a pretty good movie, and oh yeah, last night
I went and saw Ladder 49 with my friend Casey. I loved it, but if you go see it,
bring tissues!
So what am I doing right now?
I'm preparing for THREE projects that I have to do this month, one of which includes me putting
red sparkles on index cards. Apparently teachers love giving extra work right around mid-term. Oh well, I'll deal. I also have two major deadlines for yearbook coming up that I'm totally freaking out about, but I'd like to say to Heather:
I am not paranoid! lol
Oh yeah,
CHECK OUT THE NOVEMBER ISSUE OF TEEN PEOPLE MAGAZINE! It's out in stores now, and
a poem of mine is featured in the
"Message Board" section (page 90).
Well, that's all for now. I'll try to update again soon!
JKM-OUT
