You Gotta Love Random Snip-Its
Here are two very random and different novel snip-its.
Yes, I have more novels on the way.
SNIP-IT ONE:“I still love you.”
The four little words jumped off her red lips like an Olympic diver jumping off a diving board.
They came out quick, but he happily absorbed them in silence. He was too busy looking her over and smiling on the inside to say
anything. He gently touched her arm -- just to be sure that she was real.
She searched his eyes and awaited the consequences of her words. It had been so long since she stared into those green eyes of his.
But had it been too long?
He gently pushed her
auburn curls out of her face and smiled. He reached down and kissed her red lips carefully, and as he pulled away, she watched a small tear glide down his face.
She thought back over all of the events that lead her to that moment, and she felt a rush of exhilaration. After a trip down a long and twisted road, she was right where she was supposed to be.
SNIP-IT TWO:Jane saw the good in Nathan.
Yeah, she saw a part of him that he
didn’t even know he had.
But eventually the angel mask came off.
To her, Nathan was still price charming – everything she wanted.
And yet, there was a sudden source of anger inside of him. He started to talk to her with cold words, and she wondered why he had to be so bland.
Why was it that he seemed to not care about anything? Was something wrong or broken? Had she done something wrong?
Or was that just his normal state of mind?
It took a while for Jane to realize Nathan’s secret.
She then wished that she hadn't tried to solve the puzzle.
Consequence
Yeah, I wasn't smart
I went and punched a hole in my heart
But I was trying to be practical
After all, you were going left
And I was going right
I didn't want things to end in a fight
I had too much on my plate
You had too much on the line
It was all too big of a sign
You could no longer be mine
So losing you was the consequence
Sure, I was trying to be intelligent
Because I didn't think we could find a balance
Yeah, this and that would be way too tense
But all that is irrelevant
Because being with you still makes the most sense
So my life is now a puzzle
I have school, work, friends
All those pieces are in
But there's one missing
Yeah, there's a big one that I lack
But it's too late
I won't get it back
I don't know how long it will take
My heart has suffered a significant break
This won't be easy to heal
But I guess I'll just have to deal
Oh, you're too far gone
I've lost this one
Yeah ...
Losing you was the consequence
Sure, I was trying to be intelligent
Because I didn't think we could find a balance
Yeah, this and that would be way too tense
But all that is irrelevant
Because being with you still makes the most sense
To Find Yourself
Sometimes it doesn’t get easier
No, sometimes it only gets harder
And sometimes you have to go farther
Farther then you’ve ever gone
And sometimes reality
Just doesn’t feel like reality
It’s as if you’re caught in a dream
Like you’re stuck in a trance
And you’re just waiting for something to feel real
But sometimes it’s just hard to feel
Anything at all
And sometimes you have to lose yourself
In order to find yourself
Yeah, life is a twisting road
It turns and it ends
But then sometimes it bends
To something new
Oh, sometimes it doesn’t get easier
But that doesn’t mean it has to get harder
Sometimes you just have to go a little farther
To find yourself
Impasse
He told her she should keep away
Yeah, he told her she probably
shouldn’t stay
But he loved her more than ever
He
didn’t want her to feel the pain
No, he
didn’t want to be the one to blame
For her worry
As time passes by
He continues to try
To keep his mind at ease
But the doctors say the time is near
And she’s there to wipe his wishful tears
From his face
What if your life was an hourglass?
What if your existence was at an impasse?
What if you wanted to leave in peace?
What if you
didn’t want others to feel sad?
What if you still wanted to live so bad?
What if you had to wish for a miracle?
He looked her in the eyes
Wishing they’d never have to say their goodbyes
But the cancer still spread
Still, with every passing day
He continued to pray
That he could have more time
He still tried to make her smile
And laugh every once in a while
But he also made her promise
Promise that when he did die
She’d remember the good times and refuse to cry
No, he
didn’t want her to cry
What if your life was an hourglass?
What if your existence was at an impasse?
What if you wanted to leave in peace?
What if you
didn’t want others to feel sad?
What if you still wanted to live so bad?
What if you had to wish for a miracle?
So she held on to her pride
When she got the call that he had died
And she just looked up at the sky
She loved him with all her heart
She was hoping they’d never be apart
But he was gone
Still, she remembers their wedding day
And how she
couldn’t remember what to say
After the preacher spoke
And she remembers all those silly songs
That he’d get stuck in her head all day long
And she thinks of him and smiles
Oh, how he made her smile
And laugh every once in a while
October
She watches him sleep
And she knows she's in too deep
Sure, he was sweet at first
He was just like prince charming
But now he's alarming
And her heart is about to burst
She plans to run away
She knows that she can't stay
'
Cus he'll continue to hurt her
Yeah, he has his hand on her heart
And he's tearing it apart
Her life is such a blur
She can't wait for October
No, she can't wait for the pain to be over
She's so tired of the
bruisesAnd the heartache
His strength is much more than she can take
Even when he's sober
Yeah, she keeps praying for it to be over
She has to stand tall
Even though he makes her feel so small
She wonders if he'll even care
But once the leaves turn to brown
She's not letting him hold her down
No, she's out of there
She leaves with sunglasses
Covering her black eye, to please the masses
But her smile is bright
Yeah, he had his hand on her for so long
So much time has come and gone
But she's won this fight
Yeah, she's out of there
But it was hard to wait for October
Hard to wait for the pain to be over
She was so tired of the bruises
And the heartache
His strength was much more than she could take
Even when he was sober
Yeah, she's so glad it's over
She's glad it's finally October
Endless Lies
Yes, please protect me
Tell me all the lies
That softly cloud your eyes
And don't fake cry
As you leave
No, it's not a sad good-bye
Your words were a twisted puzzle
I knew the confusion all too well
Yes, I could always tell
She was on your mind
Sure, you were with me
But it was her that you'd see
You can have her
Yeah, it's okay
It doesn't matter anyway
Because you'll regret this
And I'll be fine
I don't need you to be mine
I saw right through the lies
I was already over you
Yeah, I can lie, too
And prince charming is right around the corner
It's too bad, so sad, but yeah, it's true
She's already going to leave you
Moving On
I'm officially done with
Gainesville State College. Yes, this should bring about feelings of accomplishment and pride, but I feel more bittersweet than anything.
I am suddenly aware of the fact that I am getting older. When you are in high school it feels like you will be stuck there for your entire life; the same thing happens with college. Even though I am no where near finishing my degree(s), I am faced with one of the horrible facts of life: things change.
I'm noticing how not only my life, but the lives of others as well, will be changing this fall. This also makes me realize that in a year and a half (when I will hopefully be done with my bachelor's), everything will be changing again. People will graduate. People will get new jobs. Some will move far away. Some will get married. So where do I fit in with all of these changes? And where will my friends fit in? There are some people in your life who you just assume will always be there, but what if they're not? What if they get offered a good job in Texas? Or what if they get married and move to
Las Vegas? Anything is possible.
Yes, I know I am dreaming up way too many "what
if's" but it's bound to happen. I like control, and I fear big black question marks. But, at the end of the day, I know that I can't have everything planned out. It's impossible. So what can I do? It
irks me to take things one day at a time because I desperately want to know what the future holds. But, then again, fate has a pleasant way of surprising me sometimes. So I guess I shouldn't be too eager. I wouldn't want to ruin a good surprise.
So what can I do for now? I can try and distract myself from all of the questions that are filed away in the back of my mind by reading/watching
Twilight and
Taylor Swift music videos, which, to be honest, is a good distraction from everything. Eventually changes will be made and a new "norm" will be established. But for now, part of my brain is going to live in Twilight's version of Forks, Washington and a Taylor Swift music video. It's what I need right now.
